Maybe i was fucking wrong in saying this, but all i said was from my heart, to myself. I talked to myself, asking, am I doing the right thing. Sometimes, I feel very upset about it. I'm neglected, but maybe I'm not. People will be thinking like that, but hey. I'm upset. Fcuking upset. Yes, all the bad words come. 'Coz I'm pissed. You might be pissed at me, I know, even if you didn't tell me. But hey, I understand.

I feel so pressured y'know. I feel so fucked up. I hate this feeling. I thought that everything will be different. Yes its different, but in a different way. F.OFF THIS FEELING CAN? F.OFF THIS ATTITUDE CAN? F.OFF THIS F.KING SITUATION CAN?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I'm really pissed, and sometimes, I just feel like I wna break down, right in front of everybody, and tell them, exactly, how fucking sad I am. I'm upset.

I wna talk, but I can't. Coz apparently, I'm no longer able too. I wna let my feelings out, but I can't. Coz I'm unable too. Why am I unable to do all this?! What the shit is this?!

I really feel like crying, but every single time, I try my best not to let it out, I'll breakdown when I'm alone, and people don't know. Others might not understand this situation, but I'm able to understand, but I can't overcome it.

What a fucking life I have in SEC 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!

And mummy is putting pressure on me, and sometimes, teachers nowadays are very blunt, and they speak without thinking of what others feel. DAMN!