Gosh, failed amaths paper two. OH DAMN ! I FORGET TAKE REPORT BOOK ! AIYO !
Flea tmr I think, hope daddy allows me to go. I really need shopping badly on my own. Not with him, though he comes out the money. Hais.

Haven't even used my polaroid camera. If gg out tmr, I shall use it. :D

Great, life is so much fun without you. I don't have to think of you. You are someone in the past of my life. NOTHING FOR ME TO WORRY NOW. Its over. THANK GOD IT WAS OVER QUICKLY !

My oh my. Usher is hot. He can dance well. I will go swimming lessons with fatin after o levels ! There's so many things I want in life ! But right now, the best thing , is to just feel the love in the air. Pray hard that I will do well in O level ! Have to start praying.

Okay, shall browse the internet now,

adios, amigos !

Yeah, I'm moving on. Not coz feelings gone, but I really should just give up and move on. Life will be better from now onwards ! I can go look for hunks with my babes that are single now ! Gosh ! Useless tears for you. Damn, sometimes, when I reflect back, I realise that my nephew is just nice to me, though he knows I don't like him. He's always there for me. Hais, why coulnd't god just match us with someone from the time we were born ?

Badminton today, damn hand is aching. Had a great day with all my cliques ! They are a bunch of jokers ! Being with them, makes me feel happy for a moment, not thinking of you. You moved on so easy, why can't I ? Or probably, I just need to really learn the true meaning of love. Can someone explain to me ?

Life seems fun for me nowadays, enjoying my afternoon with my bestfriend Peggy, pouring out all my sadness to her. Gosh, she is just amazing !

I hope daddy don't force me to go JB with him this saturday, I just earned money and I need to go shopping for acceceries for HARI RAYA ! AND HEELS ! AND WALLET AND AND HANGBAG !!! OMGOMGOMG. CAN'T WAIT FOR HARI RAYA, THOUGH I'LL BE SMUGGLING THROUGH MY STUDIES FOR O LEVELS !

See, I am happy ! I can move on faster than you ! HAH !

I LOVE MYSELF AND MY FRIENDS A LOT !

xoxo,
basyirah !

I really really wna talk to you boy

Boy, you made sucha huge impact on me.
Why is it that after everytime I saw you, feelings came back ? Do you know that its very very awkward for me? I used to like you very much. But idk why things changed. I rejected you so many times, making you wait, giving you false hope. You know that my answer will be a no, you told me you don't dare to hope for high answers. But I sent you long messages telling you why we should just give up this relationship. Now, I seem to regret everything !

Bestfriend told me to just do it, don't change my mind! She supports me, but I am afraid that your answer will be a no, and that will hurt me in the end. Gosh ! I hate this feeling kae ! Why do you freaking have to make a big impact on me ? Why do I like you so much ?! Damn. I really wna text you, meet you. But I know its not gna happen. Maybe you don't have feelings for me already. Its just one sided for me. I regretted not talking to you during sat and sun. I regretted not smilling to you. I regretted all my moves. Damn.

Boy, you just make me wna fall in love with you again and again. This time round, I'll try my best, and if you really giving up on me. Then I shall not disturb you anymore. I'm sorry boy.

If only I have a boyfriend like him. GOSH. Life will just be perfect for me. Today's GCE O LEVEL MOTHER TONGUE LISTENING COMPREHENSION. I wonder who actually listened to the radio to hear along with all the O lvl students. Qst was tricky though, but its alright, as long as get an A I'm fine. I just need an A. Staring at english file right now. I'm so bored. Gna flunk prelim 1 coz I know I'm not prepared. I'm always not prepared. Just can't study on time. Need space, need relaxing, need TIME. Damn. Everything isn't just going my way. I have to give in every single time. Why can't people just understand me ? And him, boy I should just forget about receiving your msg or whatsoever.

This weekend, I'm waiting for it badly, coz I really wna see him. I hope he'll text me, but I know he wouldn't. I shall just forget it.

Gna go for the wedding with geog qsts to bomb to my dearest cousin who helps me :D
HAHAHA. Twilight saga books has good phrases to use for compo, so I have read it and took note of some vocab words. I'm sucha good girl :D

I hope that everything will pass quickly and that I can completed education by 25 !

YOU GO GIRL !

ADIOS AMIGOS,
XOXO
BASHBASH !

I think I'm bored. Yes I am. All alone at home again, reason is to study, and yet now I'm using my darling. Hahah. Send the stuffs over to Peggy's hse just now. She say daddy looked fierce. HEHEHHE. Gosh, another week, and yes, I get to see him. How much I really miss him like a lot, its been almost 5months not seeing him. I hope everything will go well, I really really miss him a lot. But too bad, circumstances doesn't allow us to be what we wna be. Damn. I envy those who has someone to love.
Night study in school tmr with bestfriend P. HAHA. Shall think what qst to bring for tmr's night study. Alright, till here then. July hasn't ended, so my facebook will still be activating.
XOXO, Bashbash !

Gosh, mouth widely open ! FREAKING PRELIMS IS COMING ! LIKE NEXT WEEK ! GEEEES.
I must start revising already. Cannot spend time anyohow, no more going out to shop already anyway I'm broke.

DAMN.
I'm gna see him next weekend, it just sucks la to actually seeing someone for two freaking whole days, not knowing what to say to him. Gosh, I sure will avoid you so that I won't be thinking of you again.

WAIT WAIT. ECLIPSE IS A SO MUST WATCH ! OMGOMGOMGOMG. JACOB AND HIS FRIENDS ARE HOT ! RILEY, THE NEWBORN VAMPIRE IS HOT TOO !!! OMGOMGOMG. I SHALL GO FIND HIS PHOTOS NOW . BYE !