OKAY. I really wna get some stuffs from blogshops. But some are rather ex and postage fee is so much! Aiyo, I broke alr.
Sometimes, I feel that the truth needs to be out to really settle some stuffs. I have been feeling like a fool. I don't know. Next year, I'm sitting for O levels, and I don't wna end myself into some stupid relationships, or confusions. I feel that I miss being a primary school student. How can one live having so many untold truths in herself. I miss being a monitress in the class, I miss being detained in school. I miss my primary school friends. I MISS EVERYTHING. If ever in one second of my life, I have a time machine that wants to bring me back into the past, I would wna go when I'm still a young and innocent kid, just lazing around, and waiting to be loved and pampered by my parents and sister and relatives. I want all those to be like that. Just like that.
Sometimes I wonder, why are people destined to be like this? Why does everything have to change when time pass? I really wonder, at certain point of life, I feel like just standing in the middle of nowhere, and just see how actually everybody runs their own life. I want to have love. But I couldn't find mine. Daddy always says this, " Never have a boyfriend at this age, unless you want to put yourself into danger and especially putting your future in a stake." I always believe daddy's words, coz parents are the still the one you look for when you're in real, deep trouble, not your friends.
But when something happen, and you regret it, what will you do? Just sit and cry? Not knowing what's happening? C'mon, that's not the way. I need to stay strong, in order to protect my family, to carry my daddy's burden with me. I have to prove mummy wrong, that I can be better than my cousins who are all graduates. I have to prove to daddy's side, that I'm the very first one to go to JUNIOR COLLEGE amongst my cousins. I have to prove all those within the next few months in 2010. A year, where I'll be taking my 'O' LEVELS. A crucial year. A year that determines my future, the real way that will really be leading me to my greatest future.
I wna strive for the best, and I wna do my ultimate best to get and achieve good results.
Adios, amigos
