You gotta let go what'cha gotta let go.

It makes no sense. True enough. Today is still 2009. But in just minutes, it will turn to be 2010.

How long more will we get to live our life?

Bla bla bla. New year's resolutions :

1) STUDY SMART

2) PASS MY 'O' LEVELS

3) GET A JOB AFTER 'O' LEVELS

4) GET MY HANDS ON TOPSHOP JEANS

5) TOUCH THOSE GLADIATOR HEELS FROM CHARLES & KEITH

6) SPRAY ON MY SOME ANNA SUI PERFRUMES

7) BUY A NEW HANDBAG FROM ANY SHOPPING CENTRES.

8) STOP MYSELF FROM EATING MANY FASTFOOD AND LOSE WEIGHT

9) HAVE THE MOST WONDERFUL SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY

and finally,

10) HAVE AN AWESOME YEAR!!!!

Cool uh. Hahah.

Well, I love my number 4,5,6,7,9 ze most! Which I have always been carving since this year.

Caught my eyes, on heels, but haven't been getting them.

Gerrr.

I need money money money. Owe Vivian presents, owe myself stuffs.

Gosh.

O levels is just next year, and I dread for O lvls. Can I don't take it, but unfortunately, we can't escape from the claws of O lvls. WE HAVE TO FACE IT. PFFT.

I wna leave behind all those pains, and misery that was caused by me. I wna leave all those behind. I hate this year, but loved some month, especially, december.

Hahah. Okay, gna catch some COUNTDOWN, and hello, I'm watching just to see my Sezairi.

Just gna wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

And to this peoples, you guys really rocked my last days of december. Thanks!

RUIXIAN, VIVIAN, CHERYL, FELICE, SYAFIQAH, BOO, ALOY, YANA, AISYAH, AYU.

I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX. THANKS FOR 2009!!

You don't have to be afraid of what's gna happen,

But instead, face the truth and reality.

I'm rotting at home, but gna go out later with family. Dangs.

School's reopening next week, or rather should I say, next year, which is just tomorrow. I'll still blog tonight, just before new year. TSK.

So many things happened this year, 2009.

A year, of tragedy, dramatic, and conflicts.

Many conflicts that strangles people together.

Many tragedy that kills people.

Many drama that hurts people.

CAN ALL THIS DON'T HAPPEN IN 2010.

I hope God doesn't let all this happen. I want a good year in 2010.

PLEASE GOD.

Thank You.

Shall update more at night.

A day of tiredness

Y'know, sometimes, people put the blame on someone else. I hate that. Really.
I admire Beyonce, for being so brave, caring, kind, and loving. She sang Halo, for Chelsea, a young girl, suffering from Cancer. She sang that song like with Chelsea standing beside her. I cried, watching the video. Its really touching.

Gosh, a day in school for sec 1 orientation day. Damn tired. Had SC bbq yesterday, at ECP. I swear, this holiday, I love my excos mates! They are like ze best you can ever find. Vivian, Felice, Cheryl, Boo, and not forgetting, HU RUIXIAN, hahha. Thanks for waiting over 45 mins, before going town. Hahah. Went to town first, to far east, to get something, as we had to use the voucher, that we got from a shop, so we bought a vintage handphone pouch. I love mine. Pictures will be uploaded soon, in facebook :D So, trained to Bedok, met Felice, then took taxi to ECP. Vivian, Cherly, Boo was there. So, bla bla bla. Many things happened. Homed, and slept, waked up early today, for the orientation. Well, it was a day of fun, laughters by excos. We really really had a lot of fun. We laughed and laughed, and laughed. Hahah! Awesome peoples! Sec 1s are abit shy, coz y'know, they haven't really gotten to know their classmates, so yeah, it will take sometime.

Left school at around 6. Homed. A fresh, cold water bathe, freshens me up! Cool! Hahah.

Sometimes, I feel like, I just wna type a message, and send it over to him. But I couldn't. And Khairil, I miss him. But just don't know when to meet him. D:

Tomorrow is, NEW YEAR'S EVE. A new year begining, and I have to do very well.
I'll talk about it, and tomorrow's post.

Adios, Amigos!

Sometimes, a moment of truth is all that we need. Nothing else. Thank you God, for giving me chances.

Sometimes, moving slow is better than moving fast,

So that you do not get into mistakes,

And ended up regretting every single thing.

Photo Credits: PhotoBucket.

I have now moved back to blogger. Sorry for the inconveniences caused. I only tried out tumblr for fun, but I couldn't like it at all. Hahaha. So, back to basics. BLOGGER. Hahah. Okay. So, today. When to school, and dearest VIVIAN TAN GAVE ME TWO GOLDEN BANGLES AS A CHIRSTMAS PRESENT. And its ex. THANKS MY DEAREST FRIEND. ILOVE HER LIKE A LOT! Hahaha! Went to eat lunchie with Ruixian, Cherly, Vivian and Boo. Popeyes! Wow. First time, i eat at that kind of place with me excos, beloveds. Hahaha. Spent my whole afternoon with them. SO FUN!

Bought myself, another schedule book. Hehe. I like it alot. Tomorrow's SC bbq. So, I gg out with friends first then to bbq. So, gna chill myself out tmr, before I start preparing for school to reopen for me, for all students. Gna watch some Cruel Temptation now.

ADIOS, AMIGOS!

MOVED LIKE AGAIN TO http://perfectpermicious.tumblr.com OKAY. SO RELINK ME AGAIN. SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCES CAUSED!

Here I go

Going swensens later on, dinner with friends. Weee~~ Andand, I really wna get that heels.
OMG. SHOULD I ??

Where has all the love gone too?

EVERYTHING THAT HAS ALWAYS HAPPENED, HAVE A MEANING BEHIND IT.

Got that line from like so freaking many peoples. Yep, and I believed in it. I believed that every single thing that happens, always have a meaning behind it. My arguement with people, always have a meaning behind it. God knows.

Okay. Today, had a fun day out. First with sister, acc her to joo chiat. Then off to meet my full time best friend. Peggy. Brought out my lappy, and took webcame photos like mad. Hahah! Supposed to study y'know. But we ended up listening to songs and laughing.

Cheryl called and asked to go to school for the N level results. But I can't. Had to travel to paya lebar. So super sorry babe!

Shopped around CS, TM, T1 with Peggy, trying to look for heels. Tried almost a lot of heels, but couldn't find one that I liked till we went to U.R.S. i.n.c. A branded shoes and handbags shop. A very sweet heels, both in blue and red. Tried it on, and Peggy said it was nice. IT WAS FREAKINGLY TEMPTING ME TO GET IT, EVEN THOUGH ITS 49 OR 59 BUCKS!!! FREAK!!!

Then, homed. Gna upload pictures at facebook for peggy. Heheh

Adios, amigos

Where does the truth goes?

OKAY. I really wna get some stuffs from blogshops. But some are rather ex and postage fee is so much! Aiyo, I broke alr.

Sometimes, I feel that the truth needs to be out to really settle some stuffs. I have been feeling like a fool. I don't know. Next year, I'm sitting for O levels, and I don't wna end myself into some stupid relationships, or confusions. I feel that I miss being a primary school student. How can one live having so many untold truths in herself. I miss being a monitress in the class, I miss being detained in school. I miss my primary school friends. I MISS EVERYTHING. If ever in one second of my life, I have a time machine that wants to bring me back into the past, I would wna go when I'm still a young and innocent kid, just lazing around, and waiting to be loved and pampered by my parents and sister and relatives. I want all those to be like that. Just like that.

Sometimes I wonder, why are people destined to be like this? Why does everything have to change when time pass? I really wonder, at certain point of life, I feel like just standing in the middle of nowhere, and just see how actually everybody runs their own life. I want to have love. But I couldn't find mine. Daddy always says this, " Never have a boyfriend at this age, unless you want to put yourself into danger and especially putting your future in a stake." I always believe daddy's words, coz parents are the still the one you look for when you're in real, deep trouble, not your friends.

But when something happen, and you regret it, what will you do? Just sit and cry? Not knowing what's happening? C'mon, that's not the way. I need to stay strong, in order to protect my family, to carry my daddy's burden with me. I have to prove mummy wrong, that I can be better than my cousins who are all graduates. I have to prove to daddy's side, that I'm the very first one to go to JUNIOR COLLEGE amongst my cousins. I have to prove all those within the next few months in 2010. A year, where I'll be taking my 'O' LEVELS. A crucial year. A year that determines my future, the real way that will really be leading me to my greatest future.

I wna strive for the best, and I wna do my ultimate best to get and achieve good results.

Adios, amigos

GEEE I MOVED BACK TO BLOGGER. WEEE~~
Found that onsugar, was abit slow. Hais. Nevermind.
I feel so restless. O level is like next year, and I haven't been revising my work. I'm dead for sure when school reopens. Damn. I WNA GO SHOPPING AT CENTRAL. Anyone wna bring me there? Please. Pwease. I got myself laptop, itouch, new phone. I got everything, but not everything. I didn't get love. I haven't gotten a good o lvl results. God, please save me. Really.
Apparently, cousin outing, I don't think I'm gna go. Coz daddy's got order for people's engagement. Chis, so, no celebrating Kak Iffah's Birthday D:

Dangdangdang. I need to sleep soon. Tmr going out, in the early morning, and we gna settle everything. I mean with daddy and sister. Hahah. Settle my school stuffs. Weee~~ I'm gna be secondary FOUR next year. Cheryl's birthday's coming soon, like next year, have to buy her something special. Hehehh.

Okay, i gotto go now. I'm missing my hot cousin, my nephew now. Hahah.

Adios, amigos!